Stupid, I should know better cause all it does is to take me down big time. I've ignored my absolute need to write. I know I know, but there has been so much going on, not necessarily only in the physical world. Today, Friday 13th is very a heavy day. Not because it's Friday or the thirteenth or even those two put together. But there is something going on. Myself, I had two nightmares in one night, this is pretty unusual, at least to me. I never have nightmares, however the last few weeks they have been around a few times. Nobody in this house had a good night sleep last night and it kind of reminded me about going to the store a few days back; It was a really hot day, but inside there was tons of people and not to mention air-condition. The sound-level was high and the general mood was up there somewhere. We finished our shopping and are just packing our bags at the cashier. Suddenly as we pay, the whole store fell silent at the same time - a total energy shift took place right in front of my eyes. I wasn't the only one to take a note of this change. I could see quite a few confused heads around the store.
This is of course not the first time I experience this kind of collective perception but it's a great example. This is why, when I woke up this morning feeling heavy as crap and hadn't had much sleep was not surprised to find the same in everyone else in the house. Even the neighbors next to us and across the street felt the same. It is such a heavy morning, and at the moment I'm just waiting for the sun to dry up my peace garden so I can mulch some more and weed my hands dirty. I don't believe this is a good day to mess around with any of the higher chakras, today we need to stay grounded and have a margarita.
"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
-Edgar Allan Poe-
Alright, it might not have been directly stupid, cause I've been doing a lot of.. let's call it research and meditation. But my outlet in writing has been gone for a couple of weeks and I needed my lover four years back to remind me in a e-mail this morning. I'm now realizing these days that time really does go faster as we go. Don't get me wrong, I've known this for a long time but one thing is to say something, another to listen to yourself.
My body and mind is very tired of having people in my life pull me down emotionally. Most of them I don't know and never will. Even as I go for a walk I pass them every day. Energythiefs or confused and lost people that really don't know how to connect - and I'm sad to see this because I wish them the best of luck but I don't have enough energy to help everyone. Especially if they don't want any help due to stubbornness or society-blindfolds. I find it funny that most of them believe it is the other way around, that I'm the lost one in their game. I haven't really figured out how to prove them wrong, but then again it might just not be my responsibility. I've chosen a few people in my life that I want to share my energy with and yes, almost all of them got it now. This really makes me happy, it's just too bad that I feel I have to put up a shield for everybody else. My biggest problem is that I really love everything and everyone, even my foe's.
I think the hardest and easiest for a lot of people is to get stuck. Stuck in a routine, stuck in habits or feelings, stuck in bed, stuck at work, stuck in a relationship, stuck in life. Loosen up good people, a very good friend of mine reminded me the other day that a person that stops learning, stop expanding is no friend of mine. This is about change, most people learned that word in an election a few years back but I'm sad to see that most people still don't get it, not even in the political sense it was meant.
A six year old told me the other day; "Jack, stay true to yourself, look I'm on a spaceship!" I'm glad he didn't say be true to yourself, because I know I really am. And the spaceship was awesome.
Jack
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